The Key To Believing In Yourself

There are moments in our lives that feel totally and completely unattainable. One of the hardest moments I've ever faced was admitting that I wanted to lose weight. It felt like defeat because losing over 75 pounds felt impossible.  I'd spent my entire life trying to lose 20 ish pounds and failed, how was I supposed to lose three times that much? 

I spent my entire adolescence and early young adult life struggling with body image. I thought I was fat. I'd tried every crash diet, pill, and dangerous fad in an attempt to attain a bikini body and I was anything but confident when I was at my healthiest so imagine how hopeless I felt when I was reached my heaviest. I hated going to the gym. I didn't want to starve myself. I didn't understand what healthy felt or looked like. And I was insecure about being seen trying to workout.

It's hard to explain just how intimidating losing that huge amount of weight was. Even today, it's hard to believe that I was able to make it happen. And yet, it was so simple. I ate really well, and I worked out. That being said, it's really f*cking hard. The amount of patience required is unparalleled. Losing weight is a lot like running marathon. It sounds impossible but step by step, day by day, if you trust and believe in yourself, you make it happen. 

 NOT before and after pictures. Me in two different times of my life. Neither is more beautiful, one version is just a lot stronger and happier. I did what I could to survive. 

NOT before and after pictures. Me in two different times of my life. Neither is more beautiful, one version is just a lot stronger and happier. I did what I could to survive. 

Change doesn't happen overnight. You have to celebrate every single teeny tiny win because it's the only way to stay present. Life is too hard not to enjoy the journey, however difficult or harrowing it may be. 

There's a reason I say the only way you'll fail is if you fail to try and that's because I'm a quitter. Personally, I hate the saying "quitting isn't an option" because I've quit on myself more times than I can count. And it was never easy. Quitting isn't the lazy option, I think it's a hell of a lot harder than pushing through whatever doubt, fear, or discomfort you're experiencing. But in the moment, you forget. It's hard to remember that pain is temporary when you don't believe that you can keep going. Especially when you're doing it for the first time.

But dare to surprise yourself. As long as you give 100% and push yourself a tiny bit farther than you think you can go, then that isn't quitting. That's a tiny win. You have to believe in yourself. Understand that whatever you've told yourself you can and can't do is BS. Those pre-defined limits aren't doing you justice. Your limits are meant to be pushed. 

Don't play by rules that don't work for you. Design your own game and make your own rules.

Compare yourself to no one but who you were yesterday.

There's no such thing as a right time to get started, there's only today. Treat every single day like today is the day.

Don't let doubt stop you from doing hard things.

Just say yes, and then see what happens.

I believe in you.

Now you have to.

 Me doubting whether or not I was going to finish the New York City Marathon after my hip blew up. Luckily, I have the greatest  coach in the whole entire world Josh Maio  who told me to just look at it like a victory lap, to take my time, and to have fun. He is a good human.

Me doubting whether or not I was going to finish the New York City Marathon after my hip blew up. Luckily, I have the greatest coach in the whole entire world Josh Maio who told me to just look at it like a victory lap, to take my time, and to have fun. He is a good human.

Until next time, #RunSelfieRepeat.