Becoming a Runner Helped Me Reclaim My Strength
All my life I battled with self-image, self-worth and body issues.
I didn’t grow up overweight, but I ended up 200 pounds at 5’9” in 2011. My doctor told me I needed to lose weight or I could have a stroke because of my heart problems. I started running because my husband’s ex-wife was a runner and she was really skinny so I wanted to be like that.
Sad, I know, it took a very skinny irrelevant woman to make me lose weight. I found running hard because I was so large chested. It was painful and downright embarrassing. After going to a plastic surgeon in 2012, he said my breast reduction was medically necessary and I went under the knife. After having that surgery, it opened so many doors for exercising and getting my life back!
I started running a lot more, I started eating more healthy foods, cut out fast food and did a lot of research on what to eat. I ate vegetables and watched my calories. Everything was going great! Eventually, I lost 85 pounds!
People started asking me for advice on how to lose weight. What they didn’t know was I was very unhealthy. I developed an eating disorder. I ate less than 1200 calories a day, ran 3 miles and practiced yoga and other types of exercise.
I started to become obsessed with my weight and what I ate.
If I wasn't 116 pounds every morning when I weighed myself, I cut even more. I cried a lot. I didn't want to eat because I was scared of food in front of me. Scared I would eat and not be able to stop. The one thing that I was successful at in my life was weight loss, and suddenly it was killing me.
My hair was falling out. I was cold in 90-degree weather. My skin was dry. I over exercised but couldn't understand why running wasn’t getting easier.
I wasn't fueling my body enough to run! I went to my doctor and they counseled me about my low BMI. They threatened to put me in the hospital if I didn’t gain weight. And from that point on, a light switch went off inside me. I started eating more, having a better relationship with food and the scale. I started lifting weights in the gym and put running on hold for a year.
I got my weight up to a healthy 130 with added muscle and fat. Now, I’m a half marathoner and a weightlifter and I'm stronger than ever!
If it weren't for my eating disorder, I wouldn’t be the strong bad ass woman I am today! I've now run 3 half marathons and I’m ready to take on my first marathon in November of 2018! Being strong is so much more important the weight, food and small clothing sizes!